Just an update.
I'm feeling a lot better physically, and doing better emotionally since Weepy died. I had to COPS come to my house thinking that I was going to hurt myself saying that someone had called them because of the message I left of the forum. Well, I haven't gone off the deep end, or done anything stupid. I just wasn't feeling up to doing anything. Remember - Weepy Baby just died, and I was all torn up inside, and felt nothing but pain! Although it still hurts I can think of Weepy, and talk about her without breaking into tears. What a stessful event! I appreciate everyones' concern and their words. I wasn't ignoring you guys - I was just falling apart. I don't eat all the time, just when I'm hungry now. I needed to occupy my mind with grieving privately and not sharing my pain with others. I thought that the forum would take away my mind from things, but it only made it worse for everyone here including me!
You don't realize what pain you can cause others when you are hurting inside as you don't think about those things. All you can feel is the loss of someone you loved so dearly for so long everyday - all day for months, or years.! It wasn't just that Weepy died, but the way she died was unnecessary since she never hurt anyone. She wasn't the type that clawed the furniture, or ran all over the house like a mindless idiot. She was very demure and lady like - classy, and respectful. Her mind may have not been as sharp as the other kitties, but I think that made her all the more special as she had a personality that can never be matched. Well, I'm a lot more stable emotionally although I still grieve for her and I always will. However, I can't dwell on it as it will never bring her back. She's gone, and I'll deal with it the best that I can. I'm not big on tatoos, but I'll memorialize her with one on my shoulder so that she'll always be with me in some way not just in memory. Thank you all for your well wishes, and prayers. It's really helped. Despite the grave nature of what has happened I'll be working on the X-wing today. I have a renewed spark, and motivation now so I need to keep working to build momentum until finished. I have a lot of summer projects, so I need to get as much work done as possible outside. Thank you all again, and thank you for reading.
~ Cobra Chris