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My question is what is it about modeling that is soothing or relaxing. Cause sometimes I want to take the item I'am working on and throw it across the room. I've done that maybe once or twice.
Throwing items across rooms can be very relaxing...
Personally, I don't think of modeling as relaxing. Relaxing is the wife and kids gone for the weekend, lying on the couch with one of the dogs for a pillow, eating pizza and watching Star Wars with the surround sound in full guy mode. It rarely happens.
Modeling - for me - is recharging. And decompressing.
I read an article not long after I came back to modeling that really clarified it for me. It was an article about focus, but it brought up the concept of not just eastern, but western-style meditation. Western meditation, it contended, is intense focus on a single task. And to me, that's what's decompressing about modeling. Sometimes, like assembling friuls or sanding wheels, my mind wanders. But when I'm airbrushing, I'm not thinking about how annoying the kids were or what's due at work the next day. I'm thinking about the airbrush and the paint and the task at hand.
As maddening as modeling can be at times, it's a fantastic way to shut out the rest of the world for a short span of time each night, and to me, that makes it entirely worth it.