This might become a very disjointed post and topic, but please bear with me if you would.
Just recently I decided I needed to do something to help focus my mind and bring back a better ability to concentrate on the subject at hand, and I thought building models, again, would be just the thing.
Since model building involves many things I have always enjoyed. Not to mention it allows my wife many hours of me being quiet, away but not gone away, and it helps take my mind off how terrible my beloved Washington Redskins have become.
So my model building days were coming back, and I headed to the store to get something to build.
I settled on the Messerschmitt ME-262. I have always loved looking at this plane, just looking at it. What a beautiful aircraft with the shark like profile and the tricycle landing gear and well, just everything about that plane just attracts me. I had to use that plane as my re-entry project. I never would have guessed this would also be the hardest thing to get started in my life.
Which makes me wonder if this is something that just happens to other people? Let me explain a little bit more, and maybe others will be able to comment or at least tell me I'm crazy in my own way.
It took me close to a week to be able to actually pull out the paint brush and paint something, anything, on the sprue, just to get this thing moving along. I made a few drop ins at the local stores that carried model paint and everything else that I needed, since I had long since trashed what I used back in the 80's.
I realized I was not able to start building this model. Not because of it being the ME-262 or the first model in almost 35 years, I just could not do anything. I was scared to death, in a weird sorta way.
Was I expecting too much from the project?
Was I expecting too much from myself?
Of course getting back into the model building thing meant also getting back into piles of Model Magazines and all that, filled with pictures of models created by some of the best model builders on the planet.
That is where I was until about 3 days ago. I sat there looking at parts and the directions, and checking out the paint and reading the magazines, checking out the web sites and things like that. But nothing got done on that ME-262.
Finally I said the heck with it, and just went old school and started to glue things together, pain things on the sprue and decided it was only a model and I was only a 50 year old cancer survivor looking for something I would never find in a box of plastic that would somehow turn into a model of a ME-262 and unless I took step one, nothing would become of it.
The model is now almost complete, and I am no longer worried about what I am doing with this thing. I have three more sitting in front of me to build, and I hope to Gawd the building block is gone.
If that is what it was? I dunno. Has anyone else experienced something like this?
Serrecko