Welcome.
Man I hate the disappearing post accident (happens too often eh).
With some luck most of us have most of our collections end up like the chap that had his end up with you.
When I go I want them going somewhere useful.
I can't subscribe to your closing thought though. This life is all you are getting, don't waste it expecting some pipe dream later. Use your time now well, and make sure you made good use of it now.