Hi modeling buddies,
I have been out of modeling, and just about everything else. and needed to give an update, and get some things off my mind. I contracted Covid in mid-October and didn't get sick other than some sinus conjestion and headache. Not even a fever. But since then I have lost my sense of balance and couldn't sit at the bench without gettting woosy and falling over. Then I would loose my concentration and short term memory. All skills I need when working on a 1/700 ship. Bed spins would be so bad that I couldn't sleep. After weeks of tests, monitoring, and a drug to make me feel funky to the point I just wanted to sit in a chair and listen to Pink Floyd while staring at the wall, most of the vertigo has subsided and I think I am in the mind to start back up. Still not 100%, then again, sounds like anyone who had had Covid won't be 100% for a long time. The verdict is that the virus may have attacked and caused swelling in my inner ear. We are also worried that it may have caused swelling of my arteries as well. I never had high blood pressure, but I do now.
I think the biggest problem is my lack of interest and self esteem. It just seems that anything I like to do or is interesting is now taken away or "off-limits" due to the condition or limits placed on Covid. I think this form of depression is also an after effect of this dang virus and I have been looking at joining a support group of those who are also experiencing this feeling.
Having some tragic losses of a close friend and family member lately due to cancer didn't help. Due to covid, I was not able to see them. Another ding to the old emotions.
I hope to get the ambition to get back to modeling. I ask everyone to stay safe and try not to get this bug. Even if you never feel sick, it seems to creep into some area of your body and start changing things when you least expect it. If you are exposed, the best advice is to just isolate for the 14 days, don't worry about being tested until you feel symptoms, because the bug probably wont show up in a test while its incubating, which has been pretty much proven to be anytime within 14 days.
Scott