PaPa-John
If there is one thing I have learned through my recovery from addiction its that good people are good people no matter how you communicate with them. I have spent my entire 11 month sobriety here and not only have I learned a great many things about modeling allowing me to become way better than I should be in 11 months(dont get me wrong I am no superstar). I have also had an amazing amount of support in my quest to be a good man and a good father. On december 19th I will have had 1 year without any drugs or alcohol and I couldnt have done it without three influences, My loving wife, my beautiful son and this forum.
Regarding the issue with your health, I give you all of my prayers and hope. I have a small amount of experience with your situation. Growing up playing national level hockey I was in the best shape you could be in, I got out of high school at 16 to work during the dot com boom. At 16 I was a star hockey player with more money than I could spend. Thought I was invincable, started partying and doing a lot of drugs. My health as you can imagine took a nose dive and at 18 I took a hit in a hockey game that turned me into a cripple, all the nerves and muscles in my back went banzi and my hockey carrer was over. I tell you that, to tell you this. (I will apologize to everyone for the too much information you are about to receive). At 19 I found two hard masses, one on each testicle, I knew in my heart it was testicular cancer, I knew I wasnt gonna be able to have kids, I knew it was just another wrench in what started out as a good life. I was so scared, so sure, I refused to see the doctor, I just let myself go deeper in depression and use more. That was, until I met Pink Chevelle, my beautiful wife. Within 2 months of knowing her, she had me at the hospital........Non cancerous cysts, calcium deposits. Within 2 years she had me out of my dark dark world of depression and addiction, Working 40 to 50 hours a week loving the boy and wife I had known in my heart I never would have. Never lose hope, never give up. At 24 years old, I have counted myself out and felt I have had nothing left more times than a lot of people will ever experience. With support, love, faith, hope and all the other cliche words you could think of, I pulled through my dark days and we will all be here to help you through yours.
Now since a picture is worth a thousand words we will do some before and after(addict and sober) of myself and some progress shots of my builds over the last year since I have been back.
BEFORE
AFTER
FIRST MODEL TO PROGRESS OF CURRENT BUILD
Dont lose your stride my new friend