Ok so I try real hard to be a positive contributer to our forums and not shed personal issues on y'all, I can't help but let members here know that I am hurting. My mom passed Friday evening, on her 71st birthday, from Emphysema/COPD. While I knew it was comming it is still an adjustment. She really was an amazing woman, ( dispite her faults real or persieved by me or others), 5ft 3", 90lbs maybe soaking wet with rocks in her pockets, she was and will be the only woman who could chase this 40+ 300+ man across a parking lot and turn him over her knee. She was a waitress, a mill janitor( saw mill), a CNC operator, a volunteer fire man( only for a bit but she did it), a real b%÷\*. Yet still my mom. She found models for me ar garage sales late in life never knowing my prefered scale or genere. Didn't matter she tried and thats what counts. Now she is gone and those kits seem to almost beg to be built. I dispise the fact that I am posting this cause I am stronger than this, I know some will think "what a dueewb" It's all good. I hurt and just want to share with the world that I exsist and lost someone ( allbeit trying) special. Thanks for your time, replys are not required, sorry to bother y'all. See ya on the forums.